Post by Emily Halliwell on Jun 8, 2011 13:40:38 GMT -5
Dear Phoebe,
I realized something recently. Well, not realized just now. I guess in a way I've always known this.
I love Piper and I loved Prue more than anything in my past, present, or future.
More than Phoebe, even. And I don't even like Paige.
I don't know why I ended up with Phoebe. Wait. Yes, I do. It was because I never had a chance with Prue as her life revolved around her sisters and magic.
Anyone she dated anything she did directly affected her sisters and by extension the power of three. Piper has always loved Leo. I couldn't get in between that. I know they'd never let me.I never really understood what made me love them both. All I knew was whatever they had, Phoebe lacked in a big way. That doesn't mean I didn't love her, because I did, but I believe my love for her has always been in direct correlation to the fact that ending a relationship with her would take me out of Piper and Prue's life and I couldn't handle that, especially after Prue died.
My desire to be near Piper was stronger than ever, and that's why I kept trying to win Phoebe back. Inconsiderate of her feelings i know, but when it comes to Piper, all I think about is my need to be around her.
My need to be around her rises from protectiveness. After losing Prue, a part of me, the real me, died. And after having watched Piper almost die so many times, it's gotten to me. Don't you ever notice how most demons leave Piper alone? It's because they know better. I made sure that the demon that killed Prue paid and anyone who hurts Piper will pay a higher price.
There is something I do think about in terms of loving Piper and Prue.
Piper. I think about how, beyond the obligatory worries, she's always pretty easily accepted me.
Prue was suspicious, but I always felt that she wished things had been different for her baby sister. I think she knew the real reason why I was with Phoebe and she thought she deserved better than being my door key and she was right. She wanted
her little sister to have someone who came over and was so intent on seeing Phoebe that he practically ignores the other two. And, now I realize that's what I want for Phoebe too.
Phoebe's a great girl, woman No GIRL, but thats all I've ever associated her with. A girl. When we met, she was still pretty much a wild child. That's what I found in Prue first and Piper second.
What I saw in Prue's eyes, were the eyes of a twice-sinned angel, stuck on Earth again for her deeds, until her time came around again. And again it came. She saved Piper and to this day and I still don't know how I feel about that. It was either Prue or Piper. Prue chose herself.
What I saw in Piper after that was a long lived advisor, who just needed a break. That's all she longed for…Was a break.
Sometimes when I would spend the night, back when I was still welcomed that is, I would see or hear her somewhere in the house, sobbing. Or shaking as reality would have it. That's crying without the aid of tears. And from my own personal experiences, I can say it's a painful and emotional action it hurt most that I couldn't make it go away for her. With all my powers, I was unable to fiddle with pains true feelings. She wanted to stop being charmed, she wanted a true life. She wanted things that
were never meant for her and she couldn't have them. So she cried. Even Leo didn't know. I think Prue knew. But I think she cried too. I know she cried too.
I watched them both cry all the time and they knew I was there, but they never said a word. They trusted me to keep their tears sacred. And even to this day, up until now telling you in this letter, I have.
I love Piper, I HAVE Paige, I lost Prue, and I married you just to lose you like I lost Prue.
In the end at least I feel this might be the end, I loved you all. The Charmed Ones, Real Charmed Ones, I am sorry Phoebe, I just don't ever see Paige as being a TRUE Charmed one or Sister! I loved you all. Endlessly.
I know in my heart this is not the actual end. I have lived, died, and lived again. I know if you and your sisters come to kill me I will rise again and I will have what I feel is mine, Piper!
I do love you Phoebe, that is why I am writing this for you to read, you have earned the truth! You need to know that I loved you and I loved Prue, but my heart now and will forever belong to Piper...
For now, Cole
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Chapter 2 - Dear Paige, Comming Soon!
I realized something recently. Well, not realized just now. I guess in a way I've always known this.
I love Piper and I loved Prue more than anything in my past, present, or future.
More than Phoebe, even. And I don't even like Paige.
I don't know why I ended up with Phoebe. Wait. Yes, I do. It was because I never had a chance with Prue as her life revolved around her sisters and magic.
Anyone she dated anything she did directly affected her sisters and by extension the power of three. Piper has always loved Leo. I couldn't get in between that. I know they'd never let me.I never really understood what made me love them both. All I knew was whatever they had, Phoebe lacked in a big way. That doesn't mean I didn't love her, because I did, but I believe my love for her has always been in direct correlation to the fact that ending a relationship with her would take me out of Piper and Prue's life and I couldn't handle that, especially after Prue died.
My desire to be near Piper was stronger than ever, and that's why I kept trying to win Phoebe back. Inconsiderate of her feelings i know, but when it comes to Piper, all I think about is my need to be around her.
My need to be around her rises from protectiveness. After losing Prue, a part of me, the real me, died. And after having watched Piper almost die so many times, it's gotten to me. Don't you ever notice how most demons leave Piper alone? It's because they know better. I made sure that the demon that killed Prue paid and anyone who hurts Piper will pay a higher price.
There is something I do think about in terms of loving Piper and Prue.
Piper. I think about how, beyond the obligatory worries, she's always pretty easily accepted me.
Prue was suspicious, but I always felt that she wished things had been different for her baby sister. I think she knew the real reason why I was with Phoebe and she thought she deserved better than being my door key and she was right. She wanted
her little sister to have someone who came over and was so intent on seeing Phoebe that he practically ignores the other two. And, now I realize that's what I want for Phoebe too.
Phoebe's a great girl, woman No GIRL, but thats all I've ever associated her with. A girl. When we met, she was still pretty much a wild child. That's what I found in Prue first and Piper second.
What I saw in Prue's eyes, were the eyes of a twice-sinned angel, stuck on Earth again for her deeds, until her time came around again. And again it came. She saved Piper and to this day and I still don't know how I feel about that. It was either Prue or Piper. Prue chose herself.
What I saw in Piper after that was a long lived advisor, who just needed a break. That's all she longed for…Was a break.
Sometimes when I would spend the night, back when I was still welcomed that is, I would see or hear her somewhere in the house, sobbing. Or shaking as reality would have it. That's crying without the aid of tears. And from my own personal experiences, I can say it's a painful and emotional action it hurt most that I couldn't make it go away for her. With all my powers, I was unable to fiddle with pains true feelings. She wanted to stop being charmed, she wanted a true life. She wanted things that
were never meant for her and she couldn't have them. So she cried. Even Leo didn't know. I think Prue knew. But I think she cried too. I know she cried too.
I watched them both cry all the time and they knew I was there, but they never said a word. They trusted me to keep their tears sacred. And even to this day, up until now telling you in this letter, I have.
I love Piper, I HAVE Paige, I lost Prue, and I married you just to lose you like I lost Prue.
In the end at least I feel this might be the end, I loved you all. The Charmed Ones, Real Charmed Ones, I am sorry Phoebe, I just don't ever see Paige as being a TRUE Charmed one or Sister! I loved you all. Endlessly.
I know in my heart this is not the actual end. I have lived, died, and lived again. I know if you and your sisters come to kill me I will rise again and I will have what I feel is mine, Piper!
I do love you Phoebe, that is why I am writing this for you to read, you have earned the truth! You need to know that I loved you and I loved Prue, but my heart now and will forever belong to Piper...
For now, Cole
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Chapter 2 - Dear Paige, Comming Soon!
