Post by K. Aabye on Mar 28, 2007 12:59:24 GMT -5
The Pain Of Losing A Parent
Dear mom,
I'm sitting in my room, I'm upset, and crying. Everything had been normal, just two days earlier, where you had been alive. I want you so badly. When someone is taken from you suddenly, there are no goodbyes. I can't begin to describe my loss to anyone - no one would understand. The dead lives in us. Mom, you're somewhere inside me, and because you are in there, I need to stay alive. I can't attend the funeral, because if I attend it, it will be goodbye forever... I miss you, mom and I want you back. I sat and watched my happy and innocent childhood disappear, it's simply gone. Mom, you need to come back to me. I don't know how to live without you. You've always been there, when I needed you the most, and nothing will ever be okay as long as you're gone. Please come back to me. I want you to know, that my childhood was the happiest. Something any other regular girl would wish for. You are my special mom and I love you very much, even when you didn't realize it. I know I've done some stupid things, but the most stupid thing I ever did was not to tell you how much I really cared for you and loved you, before it was too late. I wish you hadn't left me here all alone. I was hoping you'd never die, so you could guide me through pain and reality. I'll be with you again, mom. I remember the last thing I said to you, before I went out, just hours before you passed away and left me here in this world. "I'll see you later, mom" I never saw you alive again, I saw you dead, but what did that help when I wanted to see you alive and happy? You were strong and goodhearted, always the peacemaker. First dad left when I had just turned 2 and you had to raise me as a single parent, you did a great job and I've always tried not to let you down. And now you left, to never come back again. You promised me you'd always be here, you promised you would never leave me. I think you're sitting upthere trying to figure out a way to come back to me. I bet The Elders won't let you, it's okay, I'll be fine. Aunt Phoebe and aunt Paige are going to be looking after me now...it's not the same but they're the only ones I've got left. You lost your mom at such an early age, then aunt Prue died and you were so scared, because you thought it was your turn to die young, everyone reassured you it wasn't your time, but it was. You will always be in my heart.
Love,
Your daughter Melinda
Dear mom,
I'm sitting in my room, I'm upset, and crying. Everything had been normal, just two days earlier, where you had been alive. I want you so badly. When someone is taken from you suddenly, there are no goodbyes. I can't begin to describe my loss to anyone - no one would understand. The dead lives in us. Mom, you're somewhere inside me, and because you are in there, I need to stay alive. I can't attend the funeral, because if I attend it, it will be goodbye forever... I miss you, mom and I want you back. I sat and watched my happy and innocent childhood disappear, it's simply gone. Mom, you need to come back to me. I don't know how to live without you. You've always been there, when I needed you the most, and nothing will ever be okay as long as you're gone. Please come back to me. I want you to know, that my childhood was the happiest. Something any other regular girl would wish for. You are my special mom and I love you very much, even when you didn't realize it. I know I've done some stupid things, but the most stupid thing I ever did was not to tell you how much I really cared for you and loved you, before it was too late. I wish you hadn't left me here all alone. I was hoping you'd never die, so you could guide me through pain and reality. I'll be with you again, mom. I remember the last thing I said to you, before I went out, just hours before you passed away and left me here in this world. "I'll see you later, mom" I never saw you alive again, I saw you dead, but what did that help when I wanted to see you alive and happy? You were strong and goodhearted, always the peacemaker. First dad left when I had just turned 2 and you had to raise me as a single parent, you did a great job and I've always tried not to let you down. And now you left, to never come back again. You promised me you'd always be here, you promised you would never leave me. I think you're sitting upthere trying to figure out a way to come back to me. I bet The Elders won't let you, it's okay, I'll be fine. Aunt Phoebe and aunt Paige are going to be looking after me now...it's not the same but they're the only ones I've got left. You lost your mom at such an early age, then aunt Prue died and you were so scared, because you thought it was your turn to die young, everyone reassured you it wasn't your time, but it was. You will always be in my heart.
Love,
Your daughter Melinda